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Blind_Mans_Eye
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Interests: Piano, Saxophone, Flute. I also like Moulin Rouge, The Exorcist and While You Were Sleeping. These movies give me hope.
Expertise: Music and Math and Brutal Honesty/
Occupation: Medical
Industry: Entertainment
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Member Since:
2/13/2005
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| My goals in life aren't to undermine authority, but make suggestions. But don't fuck with me or else you will get it cuz I don't let anybody push me around EVEN ONCE. | | |
| It's amazing how you never think about the most important aspect you have: you live. Death seems so far away, especially when you're a teenager. But It is always lurking somewhere around a corner...waiting...The worst part of the whole thing is that it is out of your control. As much as you think it is, you are never in control of your own death. I didn't know her, I will tell you right now without fault. But my heart did end up it my throat anyways because I realized that it was so random that it could also happen to me. The guy who sits next to me cried and at times he seemed so insensitive, but I guess he really does know where the line is drawn. When he did, I put my hand on his shoulder and make circles with my thumb. I pretended to have a cough and stuffed nose to get tissues which I then gave to him. God doesn't exist. | | |
| Finally gave my speech on stem cell research today. The speech itself went quite well and I heard some really good clapping. But then came the "any questions" part and some hands flew up. Obviously there was gonna be somebody in the opposition and I was prepared for that. But then there were those that asked me like "how much money would it cost? What about proposition whatever, and how much time would it take to make progress?". I was like  . Shit what do I say. The teacher expected me to talk about stem cells in 3 and a half minutes or under! Are you fucking kidding me?? How the hell someone expects me to talk about ALL the aspects of stem cell research in under 4 minutes is outta their mind. So of course, I only researched the main and important stuff, not any of that crap. I kind of panicked, but tried to give them a vague answer so it satisfies them. I thought I did horrible at the end with all the questions. But apparently the teacher and other students were congradulating me at the end. Meera said I did a perfect job. If you say so. | | |
| God, I fucking miss talking to Anez just one on one. This chick Neha just keeps on clinging to her and it's starting to piss me off because I can't tell anything to Anez and she won't tell me any personal stuff either. Not to mention that I do feel bad when I only talk to one person in a group. I should keep Anez updated just so I can see where to go from a given situation and so that when I finally get the chance to talk to her one on one, it won't be all "Woah, that's a lot of stuff". *Sigh* Sometimes I wish she had never gotten the fucking cellphone. Come to think of it I am being selfish. I do want SOMEONE to talk to. It just is kinda difficult to talk to someone that doesn't have all the background info already. Like I have to give a huge story before actually getting to my main focus point. It is annoying. | | |
| Looked back on some of my xanga entries. Good times I must say, especially concerning Will. Alyssa and Sam's advice was hellza funny as I read the comments. I think I am on a new level of love with J. I mean, before it was very energetic and hyper. But now it's much more solemn and calm. I still feel the exact same thing, but it's just not the hyper-crazy love. Like I imagine just the two of us lying together somewhere, not doing THAT. That to me is so romantic that anything else. | | |
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